((Doctors in Indonesia are unsure whether they can operate on a baby born with two heads, although the newborn girl is in stable condition, according to published reports.

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A team of experts has been assembled at the Pelni Petamburan Hospital in Jakarta to determine how to treat the infant who was born in a healthy condition by Caesarean on Aug. 8, the Agence France-Presse news service reported.

The newborn is an extremely rare form of conjoined twins called a dicephalus twin, which is a child born with two heads, two spinal columns, two arms and legs, but shared multiple internal organs.

The baby, named Syafitri by her parents, is breathing with the assistance of a machine to ensure that enough oxygen flows from her one heart to the two heads, Channel NewsAsia reported.

Currently the baby's vital organs are functioning normally and is in no immediate danger, although doctors are concerned about other complications from her complex condition.

© 2008 MSNBC Interactive

A baby has reportedly been born in Bangladesh with two heads. Police have had to move the baby to a larger hospital and increase security due to the curiosity of the public. He has only one set of internal organs but it is not yet determined whether or not he has two brains that function independently. Here is the photo of baby Kiron:

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What bothers me about both cases this is that both heads are fully functional,brain and all .They talk about operation but what they really mean is to cut off one head (kill one of the babies )to make the child Normal. In my opinion that is murder! I do not care if they might not survive together ...how does one choose which child to kill ?-tell me that ? oh this one doesn't cry as much as the other lets keep it and  chop the other off   -ack !...its awful and disturbing ...

And everyone is acting like it is the only thing to do ...I hate it -----))

 

I am better without you, more my self.

Life enfolds beautifully, producing testament and legacy.

No longer lost in the inadequacies you clad me in,

I recognize the pearl before the swine.

 

And yet I am only fragment misplaced.

My soul resides within you, inside the us lost in future past.

Truth falls from my eyes one crystal at the time, no more rivers- they ran dry.

     Frozen in your smile, my future is tasteless. Your words plentiful and empty raid faith, giving birth to a deformed corpse once called love, now known as regret.

 

I count hours, embrace insomnia, try to break the strengthening tide of thoughts in my mind.

Why's have never filled an empty heart.

Will providence be forever ailing?

 

 Intellect reveals scarred form well camouflaged by snakelike grace and piety.

                     I walk the fading halls of memory,

 prose like apparitions echo  and fall dead to earth.

.Miss thee, love thee, loath thee, endlessly

-I dance alone.

© 2008 Alexandra

A day in the life


Things are generally going pretty well ,it has been a little stressful saving Morgaine out of her problems (again!) ,saving Nichole out of her self made stupidity (again) and helping Tanyetta becoming self sufficient for college .

As always stress has taken my voice and I sound like a drugged out Minnie mouse but It’s getting better .Had a horrible fight with my mother, but I did well with that as well because I avoided her pulling me into her drama .I am finally enrolled in college ,so I am going to be a psychologist ,YAY ME!

Money has become a scary thing ,and I am skimming by foreclosure by the skin of my teeth , but GOD has been backing me so it isn’t a total disaster yet .

I am a little lonely , but that is a condition I reside in on reoccurring basis
And seems like something that I have to get used to again. I am a difficult person, it seems that I am always the girl under glass -I am there but nothing can really reach me.

The only two people who ever did where Jenny and Julius, Jenny is in Germany and I really miss her right now .She is the only one on the planet I can be my self with .I have lost the ability to trust and can seem to open up any more ,she remains the only person I can run to .

Julius became the bane of my existence, there is no rational explanation to why I still miss him or his lies, it makes me disgusted with my self .I have consciously been trying to repair the damage he caused in me but it seems to be a losing battle, its like a thorn caught in my soul that cuts deeper every time I try to pull it out. It’s a strange thing I was never one to hold grudges and now this seems to be a grudge eternal I can’t wash my self from .

I have never hated anyone in my life but when I think of him I get caught up in a endless spiral of tenderness,longing ,disgust at his person and a hatred that could melt titanium. Who knows in time I might be able to break this curse but it has been going on to long for my taste.

I haven’t talked to him in 5 weeks and before that the only contact we had was contact I initiated. I know he doesn’t care , that I was just someone to fill his emptiness and boredom , I know why he did what he did to me ,I even know his motivations , but knowing does not help when emotions are involved , and emotions are there that I can’t control …I HATE IT !

I ask my self why I still care, why I still feel connected, there is no logic in this. I asked my self many times if it is hurt pride because he rejected me and I just can’t deal with it .

I look at him and asses all of his traits and only find a small number that I like .
And over a hundred that either disgust me to the core or infuriate me into frenzy .

It definitely is not his looks that attract me to him ,I mean he is not ugly and he has a really cute smile ,but physically he is so far from my type than anyone could be .he is a head shorter than me and has more hair on his body than I usually can deal with .

But still When I was with him he was beautiful to me ,not rationally from an observers point of view but somewhere on the inside it just seemed rite. I would look at him and just smile because he was so perfectly himself within his imperfections .it was like I just knew him ,he was as familiar as my favourite jeans or my favourite poem .

It definitely was not what he told me because I caught on quick that everything that comes out of his mouth is a load of lies and distortions.

It was defiantly not because he made me feel special because he did this to more than one woman and openly told me so.

Yes he is smart and talented but so are 99% of my friends.

So I guess what gets me is the depth of emotion that I still hold for someone that I genuinely dislike as a person -who is not even part of my life anymore. What is it that drives me to want to call him when anything significant happens in my life, or to think of him when I am near something beautiful whishing I could share it with him?

What on earth makes me so stupid?

I am doing good in many ways , I have stopped calling him , asking him to be a part of my life ,have stopped even trying to foolmyself in beliving he ever loved me no matter how much he said he did .I am working hard on forgetting he ever existed ,.

Will I be successful in the end ? And what is making this so hard- it shouldn’t be considering the fact that everything we had was but a mirage and a game for him.considering that anything he said and lacked anything of truth worth and was only put out there so he could play mind chess.

I pray to GOD that I never fall in love again, has been the worsted experience in my life .I hope that one day I will wake up without missing him without feeling like a pat of me is missing just because he is not with me .I want to live my life without even wasting a thought on him or the time we spent together.

I deserve peace and happiness, I know that .I also know that despite my failings it was he who was at fault for everything that happened and not me. He is one of these people who will never admit what he did ,so I can’t be waiting for an apology-am I ?

He is sooo self absorbed and frankly I have never seem him stand up to anything he was responsible for. Yeah he will whine a bit and say “what a bad person he is “ but I think it is more an act of self-indulgence than real remorse.

One thing that always amazed me is how he is able to twist realty to his liking and really believe it ,I have never seen anyone else do it like that except maybe my mother and she is clinically insane and he is not . So whats his excuse ?

Truth fully I don’t want him in my life anymore no matter how it kills me .I would never trust him , all he would do is find a new way to hurt me a screw with my mind .So I ask my self what do I want …why do I care ..I don’t want him around me ,but I miss him like crazy …I don’t like him but he is my special person ….am I crazy ? I mean .....

What ever!- enough about him again ,ack I am boring myself to tears …

I will never find answers …only GOD knows why he brought this person in my life …and I will have to live with it ….

Sorry for doing the Julius rant again …lol I guess it is a form of therapy

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As for the rest of my life ,it is falling in place I am working on a sculpture ,writing again and composing …I have a commissioned painting in the waiting list for knight tiger ,and will finally have a degree of my own …all in all I am doing well ….

Thank you for listening ;)