A day in the life


Things are generally going pretty well ,it has been a little stressful saving Morgaine out of her problems (again!) ,saving Nichole out of her self made stupidity (again) and helping Tanyetta becoming self sufficient for college .

As always stress has taken my voice and I sound like a drugged out Minnie mouse but It’s getting better .Had a horrible fight with my mother, but I did well with that as well because I avoided her pulling me into her drama .I am finally enrolled in college ,so I am going to be a psychologist ,YAY ME!

Money has become a scary thing ,and I am skimming by foreclosure by the skin of my teeth , but GOD has been backing me so it isn’t a total disaster yet .

I am a little lonely , but that is a condition I reside in on reoccurring basis
And seems like something that I have to get used to again. I am a difficult person, it seems that I am always the girl under glass -I am there but nothing can really reach me.

The only two people who ever did where Jenny and Julius, Jenny is in Germany and I really miss her right now .She is the only one on the planet I can be my self with .I have lost the ability to trust and can seem to open up any more ,she remains the only person I can run to .

Julius became the bane of my existence, there is no rational explanation to why I still miss him or his lies, it makes me disgusted with my self .I have consciously been trying to repair the damage he caused in me but it seems to be a losing battle, its like a thorn caught in my soul that cuts deeper every time I try to pull it out. It’s a strange thing I was never one to hold grudges and now this seems to be a grudge eternal I can’t wash my self from .

I have never hated anyone in my life but when I think of him I get caught up in a endless spiral of tenderness,longing ,disgust at his person and a hatred that could melt titanium. Who knows in time I might be able to break this curse but it has been going on to long for my taste.

I haven’t talked to him in 5 weeks and before that the only contact we had was contact I initiated. I know he doesn’t care , that I was just someone to fill his emptiness and boredom , I know why he did what he did to me ,I even know his motivations , but knowing does not help when emotions are involved , and emotions are there that I can’t control …I HATE IT !

I ask my self why I still care, why I still feel connected, there is no logic in this. I asked my self many times if it is hurt pride because he rejected me and I just can’t deal with it .

I look at him and asses all of his traits and only find a small number that I like .
And over a hundred that either disgust me to the core or infuriate me into frenzy .

It definitely is not his looks that attract me to him ,I mean he is not ugly and he has a really cute smile ,but physically he is so far from my type than anyone could be .he is a head shorter than me and has more hair on his body than I usually can deal with .

But still When I was with him he was beautiful to me ,not rationally from an observers point of view but somewhere on the inside it just seemed rite. I would look at him and just smile because he was so perfectly himself within his imperfections .it was like I just knew him ,he was as familiar as my favourite jeans or my favourite poem .

It definitely was not what he told me because I caught on quick that everything that comes out of his mouth is a load of lies and distortions.

It was defiantly not because he made me feel special because he did this to more than one woman and openly told me so.

Yes he is smart and talented but so are 99% of my friends.

So I guess what gets me is the depth of emotion that I still hold for someone that I genuinely dislike as a person -who is not even part of my life anymore. What is it that drives me to want to call him when anything significant happens in my life, or to think of him when I am near something beautiful whishing I could share it with him?

What on earth makes me so stupid?

I am doing good in many ways , I have stopped calling him , asking him to be a part of my life ,have stopped even trying to foolmyself in beliving he ever loved me no matter how much he said he did .I am working hard on forgetting he ever existed ,.

Will I be successful in the end ? And what is making this so hard- it shouldn’t be considering the fact that everything we had was but a mirage and a game for him.considering that anything he said and lacked anything of truth worth and was only put out there so he could play mind chess.

I pray to GOD that I never fall in love again, has been the worsted experience in my life .I hope that one day I will wake up without missing him without feeling like a pat of me is missing just because he is not with me .I want to live my life without even wasting a thought on him or the time we spent together.

I deserve peace and happiness, I know that .I also know that despite my failings it was he who was at fault for everything that happened and not me. He is one of these people who will never admit what he did ,so I can’t be waiting for an apology-am I ?

He is sooo self absorbed and frankly I have never seem him stand up to anything he was responsible for. Yeah he will whine a bit and say “what a bad person he is “ but I think it is more an act of self-indulgence than real remorse.

One thing that always amazed me is how he is able to twist realty to his liking and really believe it ,I have never seen anyone else do it like that except maybe my mother and she is clinically insane and he is not . So whats his excuse ?

Truth fully I don’t want him in my life anymore no matter how it kills me .I would never trust him , all he would do is find a new way to hurt me a screw with my mind .So I ask my self what do I want …why do I care ..I don’t want him around me ,but I miss him like crazy …I don’t like him but he is my special person ….am I crazy ? I mean .....

What ever!- enough about him again ,ack I am boring myself to tears …

I will never find answers …only GOD knows why he brought this person in my life …and I will have to live with it ….

Sorry for doing the Julius rant again …lol I guess it is a form of therapy

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As for the rest of my life ,it is falling in place I am working on a sculpture ,writing again and composing …I have a commissioned painting in the waiting list for knight tiger ,and will finally have a degree of my own …all in all I am doing well ….

Thank you for listening ;)

 

I am better without you, more my self.

Life enfolds beautifully, producing testament and legacy.

No longer lost in the inadequacies you clad me in,

I recognize the pearl before the swine.

 

And yet I am only fragment misplaced.

My soul resides within you, inside the us lost in future past.

Truth falls from my eyes one crystal at the time, no more rivers- they ran dry.

     Frozen in your smile, my future is tasteless. Your words plentiful and empty raid faith, giving birth to a deformed corpse once called love, now known as regret.

 

I count hours, embrace insomnia, try to break the strengthening tide of thoughts in my mind.

Why's have never filled an empty heart.

Will providence be forever ailing?

 

 Intellect reveals scarred form well camouflaged by snakelike grace and piety.

                     I walk the fading halls of memory,

 prose like apparitions echo  and fall dead to earth.

.Miss thee, love thee, loath thee, endlessly

-I dance alone.

© 2008 Alexandra

 

((Doctors in Indonesia are unsure whether they can operate on a baby born with two heads, although the newborn girl is in stable condition, according to published reports.

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A team of experts has been assembled at the Pelni Petamburan Hospital in Jakarta to determine how to treat the infant who was born in a healthy condition by Caesarean on Aug. 8, the Agence France-Presse news service reported.

The newborn is an extremely rare form of conjoined twins called a dicephalus twin, which is a child born with two heads, two spinal columns, two arms and legs, but shared multiple internal organs.

The baby, named Syafitri by her parents, is breathing with the assistance of a machine to ensure that enough oxygen flows from her one heart to the two heads, Channel NewsAsia reported.

Currently the baby's vital organs are functioning normally and is in no immediate danger, although doctors are concerned about other complications from her complex condition.

© 2008 MSNBC Interactive

A baby has reportedly been born in Bangladesh with two heads. Police have had to move the baby to a larger hospital and increase security due to the curiosity of the public. He has only one set of internal organs but it is not yet determined whether or not he has two brains that function independently. Here is the photo of baby Kiron:

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What bothers me about both cases this is that both heads are fully functional,brain and all .They talk about operation but what they really mean is to cut off one head (kill one of the babies )to make the child Normal. In my opinion that is murder! I do not care if they might not survive together ...how does one choose which child to kill ?-tell me that ? oh this one doesn't cry as much as the other lets keep it and  chop the other off   -ack !...its awful and disturbing ...

And everyone is acting like it is the only thing to do ...I hate it -----))

 

I keep bugging People with this but it is so much healthier than sugar ...since i have been living in the U.S i have been subjected to so much sugar overdose it is insane ...Americans tend to eat and put 3 times more sugar into thier food than most european countries ...it worries me ...honey is good but it still has calories and because i tend to get animal crualty free honey it costs a lot and is only used on special ocasions ...so here for those intersted


STEVIA

qwik facts :

Stevia General Information:

Used for over 1500 years by the native Guarani Indians, Stevia is an herb with an abundance of positive effects. The Stevia leaf contains numerous phytonutrients and trace minerals, and is much sweeter than sugar, minus the negative effects. Stevia sweetener can sweeten any drink without calories and carbohydrates, and is diabetic safe. Using Stevia sweetener as part of a regular diet has been reported to minimize hunger sensations and cravings for sweets or fatty foods.

Stevia Uses & Scientific Evidence For
Stevia nourishes the pancreas, and since there are no calories or carbohydrates, it can be used as a weight loss aid. This sweet herb also aides in digestion, decreases hypertension without effecting normal blood pressure, stabilizes blood glucose levels, shortens recovery time from colds and the flu, and helps curb the cravings associated with addictions to tobacco and alcohol. When used in toothpaste or mouthwash, Stevia can reduce cavities and gum disease.


Stevia Leaf - Too Good To Be Legal?
-----

Rob McCaleb
Herb Research Foundation

For hundreds of years, people in Paraguay and Brazil have used a sweet
leaf to sweeten bitter herbal teas including mate. For nearly 20
years, Japanese consumers by the millions have used extracts of the
same plant as a safe, natural, non-caloric sweetener. The plant is
stevia, formally known as Stevia rebaudiana, and today it is under
wholesale attack by the U.S. Food and Drug Administration.

Stevia is a fairly unassuming perennial shrub of the aster family
(Asteraceae), native to the northern regions of South America. It has
now been grown commercially in Brazil, Paraguay, Uruguay, Central
America, the United States, Israel, Thailand and China. The leaves
contain several chemicals called glycosides, which taste sweet, but do
not provide calories. The major glycoside is called stevioside, and is
one of the major sweeteners in use in Japan and Korea. Stevia and its
extracts have captured over 40% of the Japanese market. Major
multinational food companies like Coca Cola and Beatrice foods,
convinced of its safety, use stevia extracts to sweeten foods for sale
in Japan, Brazil, and other countries where it is approved.
Europeans first learned of stevia when the Spanish Conquistadors of the
Sixteenth Century sent word to Spain that the natives of South America
had used the plant to sweeten herbal tea since "ancient times".

The saga of American interest in stevia began around the turn of the
Twentieth Century when researchers in Brazil started hearing about "a
plant with leaves so sweet that a part of one would sweeten a whole
gourd full of mate." The plant had been described in 1899 by
Dr. M. S. Bertoni. In 1921 the American Trade Commissioner to Paraguay
commented in a letter "Although known to science for thirty years and
used by the Indians for a much longer period nothing has been done
commercially with the plant. This has been due to a lack of interest
on the part of capital and to the difficulty of cultivation."

Dr. Bertoni wrote some of the earliest articles on the plant in 1905
and 1918. In the latter article he notes:

"The principal importance of Ka he'e (stevia) is due to the possibility
of substituting it for saccharine. It presents these great advantages
over saccharine:

1. It is not toxic but, on the contrary, it is healthful, as shown
by long experience and according to the studies of Dr. Rebaudi.
2. It is a sweetening agent of great power.
3. It can be employed directly in its natural state, (pulverized
leaves).
4. It is much cheaper than saccharine."

Unfortunately, this last point may have been the undoing of stevia.
Noncaloric sweeteners are a big business in the U.S., as are caloric
sweeteners like sugar and the sugar-alcohols, sorbital, mannitol and
xylitol. It is small wonder that the powerful sweetener interests
here, do not want the natural, inexpensive, and non-patentable stevia
approved in the U.S.
In the 1970s, the Japanese government approved the plant, and food
manufacturers began using stevia extracts to sweeten everything from
sweet soy sauce and pickles to diet Coke. Researchers found the
extract interesting, resulting in dozens of well-designed studies of
its safety, chemistry and stability for use in different food products.
Various writers have praised the taste of the extracts, which has much
less of the bitter aftertaste prevalent in most noncaloric sweeteners.
In addition to Japan, other governments have approved stevia and
stevioside, including those of Brazil, China and South Korea, among
others. Unfortunately, the US was destined to be a different story.
Stevia has been safely used in this country for over ten years, but a
few years ago, the trouble began.

FDA ATTACK ON STEVIA

Around 1987, FDA inspectors began visiting herb companies who were
selling stevia, telling them to stop using it because it is an
"unapproved food additive". By mid 1990 several companies had been
visited. In one case FDA's inspector reportedly told a company
president they were trying to get people to stop using stevia "because
Nutra Sweet complained to FDA." The Herb Research Foundation(HRF),
which has extensive scientific files on stevia, became concerned and
filed a Freedom of Information Act request with FDA for information
about contacts between Nutra Sweet and FDA about stevia. It took over
a year to get any information from the FDA, but the identity of the
company who prompted the FDA action was masked by the agency.

In May, 1991 FDA acted by imposing an import alert on stevia to
prevent it from being imported into the US. They also began formally
warning companies to stop using the "illegal" herb.
By the beginning of 1991, the American Herbal Products Association
(AHPA) was working to defend stevia. At their general meeting at
Natural Products Expo West, members of the industry pledged most of
the needed funds to support work to convince FDA of the safety of
stevia. AHPA contracted HRF to produce a professional review of the
stevia literature. The review was conducted by Doug Kinghorn, PhD.,
one of the world's leading authorities on stevia and other natural
non-nutritive sweeteners. Dr. Kinghorn's report was peer-reviewed by
several other plant safety experts and concluded that historical and
current common use of stevia, and the scientific evidence all support
the safety of this plant for use in foods. Based on this report, and
other evidence, AHPA filed a petition with FDA in late October asking
FDA's "acquiescence and concurrence" that stevia leaf is exempt from
food additive regulations and can be used in foods.

FDA, apparently attempting to regulate this herb as they would a new
food additive, contends that there is inadequate evidence to approve
stevia. However, because of its use in Japan, there is much more
scientific evidence of stevia's safety than for most foods and
additives. The extent of evidence FDA is demanding for the approval
of stevia, far exceeds that which has been required to approve even
new synthetic food chemicals like aspartame (Nutra Sweet).

AHPA's petition points out that FDA's food additive laws were meant to
protect consumers from synthetic chemicals added to food. FDA is
trying, in the case of stevia to claim that stevia is the same as a
chemical food additive. But as the AHPA petition points out,
Congress did not intend food additive legislation to regulate natural
constituents of food itself. In fact, Congressman Delaney said in
1956, "There is hardly a food sold in the market today which has not
had some chemicals used on or in it at some stage in its production,
processing, packaging, transportation or storage." He stressed that
his proposed bill was to assure the safety of "new chemicals that are
being used in our daily food supply," and when asked if the
regulations would apply to whole foods, he replied "No, to food
chemicals only." AHPA contends that stevia is a food, which is
already recognized as safe because of its long history of food use.
Foods which have a long history of safe use are exempted by law from
the extensive laboratory tests required of new food chemicals. The
AHPA petition, however, supports the safe use of stevia with both the
historical record, and references to the numerous toxicology studies
conducted during the approval process in Japan, and studies by
interested researchers in other countries.

To date, the FDA still refuses to allow stevia to be sold in the U.S.
but the recently-enacted Dietary Supplement Health and Education Act
of 1994 may prevent the FDA from treating stevia and other natural
herbs as "food additives."

rmccaleb@herbs.org -- [also herbal@netcom.com]


there is a large anti stevia lobby as well but i really belive that it is the sugar industry who is playing there game in 6 of 8 studies that I know of they had thier hand in the funding :P

R-

to buy :
http://www.herbalremedies.com/

to grow it your self :
http://www.stevia.net/growingstevia.htm

safty studies :
http://www.stevia.net/safety.htm


info:
http://www.stevia.net/

If somebody tries to involve you in a violent situation, try to retreat, if that is not possible, protect yourself and fight your way out with the least possible harm for yourself and others.

If somebody tries to do you harm of threatens your life first try to immobilize him or her, if that is not possible do what you have to do but don't forget it is always better to break someone's arm than to kill someone.

If you see that someone is in need of help, do what you must to protect them but remember: breaking an arm...

If it is possible, try to talk yourself out of a conflict, it is the better path.

I personally don't believe in total pacifism. I don't think that letting myself be beaten up by someone is going to end violence. I believe that if I show that I'm capable to protect myself the aggressor may think twice before he beats up the next. I chose 'may' and not 'will' because some just don't learn and have to learn it the hard way.

I believe in the Ten Commandments, and in my book it is not thou shall not murder but thou shall not kill. Every life is sacred, even that of the aggressor. There are people who have done horrible things and at some point at there life had a complete turn around .If we kill somebody because He or She has killed; we take from them the possibility of change. We take from them possibility for their soul and individual incarnation to turn from dark to light.

I am not saying that given some circumstances, I would not kill .I am human and therefore fallible .It s human nature to try to survive. But I will say that I will do my damnedest to try to save a life even that of an aggressor. And there is always the question of faith, do I trust GOD enough to get me out of the situation without having to break an elemental law, just because I fear for my wellbeing …

I mean if GOD wants me dead nothing will save me. I can hide all I like , never leave my house ,use fire or pointy objects ,disinfect everything ,recycle my air waste ect. If HE wants me dead I could do all that and still have a plain crash into my house whilst I am sitting on my toilet. I am digressing :P

Back to the subject of violence …


If you decide to use violence be sure of what you are doing and the consequences for yourself and others. And then do it with a strong heart
And effectively or don’t do it all

I recommend martial arts for those who wish to protect themselves

If you decide to use weapons, never, and I mean never, use a weapon you do not master or which force you can not control. If you use weapons you should be responsible enough to look into some medical material about gun- and knife wounds and should visit your local police department and let them show you some of the homicide files. If it is still your wish to use them go ahead but before putting them to use. Get somebody to teach you how to use them. The last thing this world needs is another trigger happy idiot and it ain’t cool shooting oneself in ones own foot or killing innocent bystanders .

Don't even try to tell me that you are carrying that gun around and are not intending to use it or at least haven't thought about it. A gun is not a toy, a .45 fired on short distance can blow a hole as big as a tennis ball, that means a hell of a lot of blood and pain. This is the real world and not a vid-game or a TV series. Most people do not fall unconscious when hit, because of the blood loss they often go into spasms, sometimes suffocate on their own blood and do not so silently. It is not a pretty sight and not very heroic. Death inflicted by gun- or knife wounds is by no means painless, so remember that the next time you feel like shooting someone for real.

War is a form of violence that has no legitimacy whatsoever in my eyes. The victims of war are usually children, the old and the weak. The ones who profit from it are usually the industry and the politicians. It is easy to sit on your sofa and let someone do the dirty work ,but the truth is that every one that is killed in a war on what ever side is a person ,with hopes dreams and potential that is lost forever in time when put to death for some idiotic political cause .

Terrorism doesn't work, killing innocent people for what cause ever won't change things, it has always made things worse. And the people that do it are not really interested in there cause any way its just a dammed ego trip .

If you feel that slavery is something you want to do something about (yes, believe it or not, slavery still exists) - go free them, killing the slave master and then walking away won't help them (by the way: freeing them won't help them either if you don't help them find a way to support themselves afterward).

As with everything else you should be in control of what you do and choose to act and not let make any-one responsible for your choices.

NUFF SAID !

The law is always on the side of those who assert it. Ethics or juristic consciousness have little to do with it. The real question is who is in power. (Frank Herbert)
This is all too true and it bothers me to see how a small group of people in charge can force their will upon millions and can get away with it.

Once at a party this man, a talented and quite intelligent person, started lamenting about how bad his life was, how oppressed he felt: went on and on about how he was forced to do things that he does not want to do in his life. 'If I had anything to say around here' he bellowed 'they’d stop polluting this planet, there wouldn't be wars nor hunger etc. etc., but they do what they want, those politicians, they should all be shot!' 'And then what?' I asked. He gave me one of those glances - you know the one, the one that makes you feel you just stole granny's dentures. I tried again: 'What do you think would happen then?' - No answer. 'Oh, forget it,' I said, 'just answer me one question: What have you done lately to stop the things you just accused?'. 'What can a man do?!' he replied, 'I'm not in power!'.


How many times have I heard this sentence or similar ones, it frustrates me. Every one of us has the power to change what he or she thinks needs to be changed. It is a myth that one alone cannot set examples and changes the face of this earth by living one beliefs. It has been done manifold.

If some hadn't had the courage to start a new path and to fight for what they believe to be true - What would the world look like today? Where one man or woman goes, others will follow.
If you sit at home whining, some other may set path and achieve goals that you might not like to see established or achieved. Of course you are not responsible for what others do, but you are clearly responsible for the things you do not do.

People tend to wait for some messiah to set wrong into right, what they like to forget is that they themselves have the power to do it. Christians say: 'God helps those who help themselves.' Which in my interpretation means: 'Find a solution to your problem and Mannon, Goddess , God, Buddha ,Shiva the Universe will help you to go through with your plans.'

It is like the story of the holy man and the flood: The holy man sat in front of his house, a villager came by to warn him of a forthcoming flood. 'Don't worry about me' he said, 'God will save me.' The flood came and the water was so high that the holy man had to move to second floor. A boat came by with a man inside. 'Come with me.' the man said. 'Oh no,' the holy man replied, 'God is going to save me.' A day later the holy man had to take place on the roof of his house because the water had risen so high. A helicopter came by and the pilot said: 'Come with me holy man or you will surely drown.' 'Oh no,' our holy man said, 'God will save me.' The water went higher and higher and holy man drowned. As he arrived in heaven and was presented to God he angrily asked God: 'Why didn't you save me, what did I do to deserve this?' God smiled and answered: 'For goodness sake, man. First I sent the villager, then I sent the boat, and after that the helicopter - What else do you think I should have done?'

I'm not saying: 'Be the next prophet', but it is possible to choose what one would like to do or not. If you do not go conform with something, openly oppose it! Be it a state law, a mindset etc. Stand up for what you believe in, if it is not possible for you to live according to your own ethics and conscience then go somewhere were you can!

If you are against war - don't join the military, make yourself and your opinion heard, find people with similar views and unite. Don't buy products from countries who are known to be aggressors. Teach people other ways of ending political conflicts. Support humanitarian organizations. Start working for the things you hold important instead of lamenting about things you don't want. Take up your responsibility as a human being and act, try to create new ways of dealing with things you oppose to.

You hold the power within you to be all that you want to be, there is absolutely nothing that can force you to something, there's always a choice. Educate yourself, because knowledge is power. Learn how the system works before you try to change it. Do not fear, for no effort is meaningless if it is pure in motive. Free yourself and you free the world.

The law is made for man and not man for the law. If you feel that man-made law goes against everything you stand for - fight it! The only laws you should follow are the ones you know to be true. Do not make others the judge of your actions, and do not let others make themselves the judge of your actions. Always remember that you are completely responsible for what you decide to do and you should be man or woman enough to hold up for the consequences.

Claim your right for freedom and grant same freedom for others. To say it in the words of someone wiser than I: Why cry for justice when we can establish our own. Why lament when we still have the freedom and the means to use it.
This also means: If you feel that you would like to take the freedom to kill, maim and oppress - go ahead, but be sure that others including myself will take the freedom to stop you. It is as easy as that!
NUFF SAID !

 

Most of us know about self fulfilling prophecy. If you believe that a thing will happen, it will 90% of the time.

The projection of possibilities has a strong potential that one should try to use for oneself, instead of letting it run wildly and uncontrolled. Of course it is not always easy to keep projections at bay when one is emotionally involved but with the right training it is possible 90% of the time.

Meditation can be of great help to train the mind to keep concentration, to let emotions cool and to learn to focus on one thing at the time. I know what I'm talking about, being of very explosive temperament. It has often come in handy for me.

Although in certain times the quality of being able to let one's thoughts fly of in all directions may be of great use, most of the time it is unproductive .The trick is to find out where and when.

In order to understand what power mental projection has, it is of great use to comprehend the elemental laws that lie behind it.

Our physical universe is not build out of some strange physical matter, it consists of energy. Our sensory organs tell us that the things surrounding us are solid and exist separately. But if we look deeper into things, on the atomic or sub-atomic level, for example, we find that solid matter consists of small particles, which again consists of even smaller particles held together by what? Energy! In the law of physics all things are energy and the effect of energy fields and their discharge. So we are all a part of a great big energy field. The things that we perceive as being separate from us are in reality only different expressions of all the existing energy-patterns and -fields. As a poet once said: 'All is light.'

Energetic fields and -patterns have their own frequency and they vibrate at different speed, they vary, so to say, in quality, giving them either finer or denser tuning. Thoughts are one of the finest tuned forms of energy and are therefore easy to change.

Our nervous system consists of a variety of sensitive cells that communicate with each other by sending, receiving, processing and storing electromagnetic impulses and information within the central nervous system. Each of these electrochemical discharges create an electromagnetic field with a frequency between 1-30hz (vibrations per second). These are called brain waves and can be measured through an electromagnetic encephalograph (EEG).

Brain waves are divided into groups and are named after the frequency in which they vibrate.

Beta waves: outward projected concentration. Frequency: 30-13hz (hz = cycle per second). Situation: Alert state of consciousness combined with a logical analytical mindset but also uneasiness, stress, anger and fear.

Alpha waves: relaxed condition. Frequency: 13-8hz. Situation: The condition between being awake and daydreaming, between being awake and falling asleep. Integration between body and mind.

Theta waves: deep meditation or creative mindset. Frequency: 8-4hz. Situation: Enhanced creativity, strong mental projection, imaginative projection, also in some phases during sleep.

Delta waves: deep sleep. Frequency: 4-1hz. Situation: Trance, deep hypnosis. In this phase healing and regenerative power is at its highest level.

Through meditation and other techniques such as breathing, trance and shamanistic practices it is possible to gain control of our own central nervous system and so use its potential for our own needs and wishes. Thoughts are very a flexible form of energy considering other denser forms such as physical matter, but even so it holds great power. Before we create something, we created within our mind first. Thought always gives birth to its materialization. Through mental projection energy flows that later can concentrate into solid form.

 A thought causes us to react; thought and projection are always the motor of action. Things on the mental plane are as real as on the physical, they are able to change us in manifold ways.

 For example: If you constantly think of illness you put so much energy into it that it is most liable that you will become ill.
Fear of something holds a great potential. We feed what we fear by thinking of it. Fear is one of the detrimental conditions in the human mindset. It gives birth to a great deal of negative and destructive emotions within us.

To name some: Jealousy, Hatred and Greed. Wars often have their root in fear. Fear of not having enough possessions, food, money, love, fear of change, of being influenced etc.

The first step in conquering what one fears is to find out what it is that one fears. The second is to think over the liability of that what one fears to happen. The next is to find out what actions one can take to prevent that what one fears come to realization. If one is capable of creating a variety of mental solutions, one is more in control of oneself and the situation that one is in. If one is in control one is less vulnerable and usually more able to cope with forthcoming situations.

Another good method, which you can also combine with the first, is to mentally project what one would like to happen. For this you can use a variety of methods (or all of them).

Now let's say you got a new job in a new city and have to move there but you haven't found a flat yet and only have one more week to go. Instead of getting nervous and panicking, you can draw a picture of what your new home should look like, or write it down on a piece of paper. For Example: 'I would like to have a place to live near the ocean, with a big bathtub, were my cats can go outside etc. etc., which won't cost me more then...'. The more details you put in the more energy the projection gets. You can also just visualize it. How many rooms does it have? Where will you put your furniture? Visualize in detail and see it come to life. You can combine the three or invent your own. It works for me and I moved about 20-30 times in my life. Classical magic works that way, although mostly one uses help from rituals, inscriptions and symbols that have been passed on and energized through generations, which gives it extra power.

Prayer is also an effective way to manifest what you want, GOD is the ultimate power: Anything energized by the divine is bound to fulfil itself.

Precog

As most things work both ways projections of future events can materialize either in dreams, daydreams, while meditating, some come as knowledge that springs to the mind, some like pictures, and some like movies before the inner eye. This is usually called precognition.

What we should never forget when it comes to precognition is that it is never a fixed reality (for it has not yet materialized itself into physical matter) that one sees but a possible future.

 A certain choice or action, even a different choice of words can change that possible future event so far that it can take a complete different course. The possibilities are manifold, nothing is written in stone, be it the future or even the past. It is just a viewpoint of the person experiencing it. If one is involved in precognitive phenomena one should take it as a gift, a hint so one is prepared and is able to act according to the way one would like the future to unfold itself.

It is true that there are always consequences resulting from our actions, but it is always at us to act and react accordingly. There is a big misconception amongst us that GOD's motivation is to punish  if we do not act as He likes us to. We only receive what we send out. As all is energy we will attract energy (events, people, things, spirits) that is compatible to our own.

 In negative effect the entity or the energy field we call the devil can resonate with our primary, intent or mindset. Negative entities feed of our negative emotions and deeds .So yes they will try to reinforce thoughts and urges that will benefit them. How ever we can not shrug off our responsibility, when it comes to our actions. It is sooo easy to blame the Devil for our evil deeds but the truth is it is us that makes the choice to execute our actions, no one else's .We have free will, it is our choice and deed. You wouldn't go kill your newborn just because your mean uncle Ernie told you so, would you?

 If we change our own energy level you will attract other events, people, spirits and things. Some events however painful they may be are there to change set structures that would keep us from evolving but if we learn to see the configuration behind things there is a lot we can change .... There is always freedom of choice and the responsibility of choice. No one can tell you what to do with your life, it's yours and it is always up to you how you cope with the situation that you are currently living through.

Happiness is a mindset as is poverty and many other things. If you currently have no money and you are on your last pack of noodles, you can say 'Poor me, I'm deprived'. You can sit and fret and feel sorry for yourself. You can concentrate on the past and a lot of 'If I only...' or 'If this hadn't happened'. Or you can say 'Cool, I still got one pack of noodles', cook and eat them while you think of a way to get out of your current money-problems. It isn't always easy, I know that, but it is a hell of a lot easier on oneself if one acts, then letting the past take to much power over us and definitely better then giving up. Who should care about you if you don't care about yourself and who should help you if you don't try to help yourself. I'm not saying that nobody will come to help you, sometimes help comes from the strangest of places. Faith is a powerful force and GOD is benevolent. But I wouldn't sit around waiting for it, you have to do your part in it too.

Trusting in GOD and the universe to fulfil itself is a good thing, being lazy and a spoilt brat, that expect things to happen without effort is not!

Beliefs create a filter in which chaos is transformed into order, believe in yourself and GOD and  the universe will believe in you.

Alexandra von Streer Henderson

 

One of the Essential Zirgohian bliefs , is that we create our own reality and destiny through our actions and the mindset within we operate. What one believes determines the development of future events.
If enough people believe in something, one can even change the laws of nature, this has already been done and will recurringly be done through our evolution. The best example is modern science were rules and standards are established only to be proved wrong by the next generation.

A mind with a fixed and unmoving mindset is by definition useless, living means learning and learning means change. Life is change ,everything changes you .You are not the same person you where an hour ago ,nor will you be the same person tomorrow . We create our surroundings and  our surroundings influence our evolution we are exposed to constant change.

Man- and Womankind has always disliked anyone or anything changing their conception of things. People often feel threatened by anything that deviates from their own views and concepts. We often believe that all of real importance is already known to us and then there comes change to throw all our beliefs overboard. We are then often bewildered and often enough we react with aggression and panic, but in the end we must integrate the changes in our environment within ourselves to stay viable.

One of the premier strengths within man-/womankind is to be able to choose what one wants to believe or not believe and to choose what one wants to be or not to be. No one can dictate what you are, if you realize that nothing is impossible if you just believe in it.
After one has found out what one wants in life it is often of use to establish a personal maxim and inner view of how the world functions, but keep in mind that those are only guidelines and that they should be subject to change as everything else.

Within all that we are (body, soul and mind) there lies the means to the creative shaping of our own wishes, fate and reality. The soul being our essence uses the trinity of body, emotion and intellect to grow and develop. These three being the instrument should always be kept in the best condition possible to achieve the best possible results. For that a high level of personal discipline is of great importance. As a wise man once said: 'Seek independence and you will be slave to your demands, seek discipline and you will find freedom'.(Frank Herbert )

I believe that the key to growth is to cultivate all aspects of our being here on earth, not to overcompensate one aspect.

We feel so we must be emotional fed to grow strong. We must discipline and train ourselves to expand the boundaries set by our upbringing. We must forgive ourselves and others in order to heal and become whole.

We have a mind and intellect that should be trained in a manner that the knowledge it holds is effectively used and of help when needed. It should be trained to be able to hold a high level of concentration so that we can use fluxthinking, without letting our thoughts fly away like birds in frenzy.

We have a body, an incredible instrument full of possibilities and wonders. Movement, sensory perceptiveness, biochemical reactions, cell memory, energetic fields, etc., which we can train and learn to control.

If we cultivate these instruments and sharpen the links between them, we are able to reach a state of being that opens the door to vast possibilities, giving us the opportunity to be and create whatever we wish. This is something I and many others believe in. In my daily life it has proved its worth.

Some of us have limitations, be it some form of handicap, illness or age, but it is possible to reach one's own personal level of harmony within the three aspects of being. This is something I personally strive for.
For this one should try to establish a costumed training plan . For example: A 93 year old may not be able to practice full contact karate (I said 'may not' and not 'is not' for I know some who can), but he or she might find Tai Chi combined with a swimming program the right thing to keep the body in tune without overdoing it.
Somebody in a wheel chair may find it useful to do work with weights and learn stick-fighting.
What I'm trying to say is that one can always find a way to compensate deficits, what counts is the will to make the best of what one is endowed with. Don't ever let anyone tell you that you can not do this or that. Everything is possible in its own given time.

Alexandra von Streer Henderson  

 

Someone posted the question if Jesus was a man or GOD in one of the gaia groups this was my reply ....

God is alpha and omega, and we are in the in-between. Physicists will tell you Time does not exist, everything is happening at once .We just break it up in our mindsets. GOD as Omega is all knowing and omnipotent.

 As Alpha, He is still evolving. Everything that is, is part of God.

GOD learns about HIMSELF through HIS creation.

We as man/woman kind are created in the image of GOD, not because HE has arms and legs, but because we have the potential to create our surroundings and destinies with our very thoughts.

We are more than the sums of our parts, we are HIS hears.

At some point ,What scientists call the BIG Bang ,God split parts of HIMSELF off -Creation .

Creation evolved, Experiences and circumstances shape each individual part .We are still part of HIM, but we are also an autonomous part within ourselves. We are in constant communication with the divine, to take an image ...we are computers logged on to the net.

GOD is server and archive of all. What we learn, do, experience becomes part of the collective knowledge and of GOD's experience.

Beyond all that GOD loves us, He is like a parent, wanting what is best for us .Rooting for us and our individual growth.

When we struggle HE sends Teachers. Very day ones like the woman around the corner who is friendly to everybody without prejudice. Special ones like mother Teresa or Mohandas K. Gandhi and devine ones Like Mohammad, Siddhartha and other Spiritual teachers.

At some point humanity was in deeper trouble than before so GOD tried something different Special, to help us, also to understand how and why we became what we are. Also to correct the cores or evolution was taking.

God split a new unseated part of HIMSELF off and send it to us, incarnated amongst us .YESHUA (Emmanuel ) who we call JESUS. Jesus was HIMSELF, yet still different than anyone in existence. GOD incarnate and Autonomous being at the same time. The only way to understand this is to understand the concept of time and space or the lack thereof.

Everything in the bible, torah , Koran and other holy books is logical , it is us that are looking at it from the wrong angle because we are lacking the knowledge to interpret it .It's like a first grader trying to understand Shakespeare.

Things happen for a reason, even the tampering of man/woman kind with the scriptures has meaning ,man /woman kind was not ready for all that was within. They would have abused and misunderstood .New testaments and scriptures will surface and resurface as they are needed .

There are many Paths but only one goal ,In the end GOD is the ultimate source and he has all the answers .